Let’s look at regret. There are times when the regret is only rectified through the means of say, the other. Instead of the regretful smoothing things over, the other person may say, this wrong cannot be rectified, and there is no way to make amends, the choice then of course being to part company of one another. Now pay attention here, for this means, can either bring about feelings of remorse in the regretful, consequently facing the very fear of suffering in the truth, and accepting the loss caused by their actions, or the regret will deepen into the bitterness of not being able to stave off the facing of truth, and the anger of not saving face, and remaining illusory in the status quo of that particular relationship. “What next?”, maybe you are asking. Ego, logic, and reason will raise its ugly head and remind the regretful that it’s all the fault of the other, because they quote, “Don’t understand, they weren’t listening”, or they, the other is “cold-hearted.” This false sense of truth is kept alive with pride. It’s this very thing, pride, that refuses the presence of humility which would allow for remorse, and a possible change in attitude. Do you see? Now, mind you these are mere examples. Mere examples of common ways of being in the human way of existence. Not all situations occur in these exact ways, however a great many do.
Let’s try to take this to a more personal level. Look at yourself, as I say this, I am certain that there is an immediate cowering of self-recognition, recognition, that is, to remember. Two things, one being, at the core of my being I am not all these games I play with myself and others in order to deflect my shortcoming. Two, the many regrets that I have are constantly being fed by my fear of being caught, and weighing me down in a mire of endless guilt, causing immense suffering to those around me, and most of all to myself.
A question, who is it that we fear being caught by? Out of everyone we can think of the ultimate one we fear is the light of the One Truth that is buried deep within us. We fear turning within and facing our ego-based self in the reflection of the mirror of Truth, God The Mother. God The Mother, She is not forgiving or unforgiving. There is no judgment in God The Mother. It is we who are unforgiving and judgmental. It is we who will forgive either in complete unabated surrender, or with conditions. The latter, of course leading back to the beginning regret and untruth, and the former, releasing our own selves from guilt, and facing the cause and accepting the effects. In our self-reflection right now we can and should ask the questions. What is the oldest unresolved regret I can remember that I am still carrying inside of me to this day? How have I reasoned with myself in order to exist and survive in my regret? Does my fear of suffering include retribution from another? In my fear of suffering, if I am honest with myself, I have to say I fear what more, facing my guilt, or facing the other and having them know the truth, not knowing how they will act? What ways of life have I adapted to in order to ease my conscience? Can you see a pattern of adopted behaviors stemming from early regrets in life that make it difficult for you to feel remorse for your own self? Is there a desire to remain in denial or ignorance because of the fear?