Contemplative Offerings to heal YOU “THE FEMININE IS THE MEDICINE-AHIMSA”

It is from The Sacred Feminine that The FIRST trinity takes birth-Spirit, Mother & Child. The patriarchal perversion is father, son & holy ghost. The re-emergence of The Sacredness of The Feminine is The Medicine to heal the dis-ease of separation in the collective psyche. The serpent is the symbol of the rejuvenating power of  Mother Nature, symbolized thru the shedding of its skin. Knowledge of snake venom is known to be Healing & the Bringer of death of the physical body. For over 4,ooo years patriarchy has attempted to oppress, dominate, reject & even KILL the Primordial Feminine. The masculine force has suppressed Her thru forced conversion, deviant pretense, brutal terror, immobilizing fear using Her Love, beauty, grace, Truth, Peace, & Wisdom as WOMD against Her. NOT ANY MORE!!! Every act of violence(himsa) first exists in the mind. Lack of Ahimsa(NONviolence) is a drought man has convinced its ignorant self that must keep the world warring to attain. The Love in the Feminine nature is the teaching of the art of Peace.  Woman MUST Seek to understand and preserve Unity. Man is too stupid to realize IF he wants to destroy the entire Feminine Presence he’ll have to get over his homophobia & pretentious  preachings of his-story re:bestiality  “god forbid!” The very existence of humanity would not BE if not for The Feminine!  To continue to exist\survive under a power-over mandated separatist god the father dictatorship IS the bastardization of THE TRUTH of human existence, is it not!? The handful of men not in this sickness-HOW will you aid humanity?


Love & Peace, The Feminine


December 24 Evening Meditation 2000

As we come together this very evening may it be in the light of truth and love. And though this may not be the very evening that the Jesus child choose to come upon the earth, it is the very evening that he is recognized. As a prophet, as a Guru, as one who came to speak the Word. And the Word is Spirit. And Spirit is the whole purpose of human existence. It is She that we are made in the image of. We are the vessel that houses the soul and the soul is but that small drop in the vast ocean of goodness and light. And we are that, and I never want you to forget that. And so may it be that we gather in the light and the love of all the ancestors and all the lite bearers, who bless us again and again by returning to the earth to bring us home, to remind us of our true divinity. And even though you may find yourself chronologically old, you are still and always will be a child of The Mother. We all are.
There is not just one son of the Cosmos, but in fact we are daughters and sons of Cosmic light, and may we never forget that. Some of us are very blessed to have the karmas to call, and call, and call upon our Guru in this lifetime until we pull ourselves into the realm, into the energies of That One. You see what I want you to remember is that Jesus didn’t even know his own purpose, until he was baptized(lit the flame of site) by his own Guru, John the Baptist. And once that occurred he remembered, I am here to be and may I do exactly as the Mother\father would have me do, as the Mother would want me to do. And that is the same for all of us. And may you always remember that, we’re all one.
So as you pull that energy inward, turning away from the worldly existence together right now. May the flame of Truth be ignited very brightly in yourself. May the mantra of compassion turn within your heart, spinning outward to all sentient beings, that all beings will benefit from our being together right now in the name of Love, Compassion, Truth and Light.
Very powerful forces stir within the universe and time and space right now. And you, each of you, as we all are a part of the universe. We all are tiny universes, and we are affected by the movement of the energies in the outward plane, and it is the outward planes that are affected by the movement of the energies of our own consciousness.
We are the only conscious beings, always remember that. We as human beings are the only ones capable of truly understanding love, and what that really means. Love at its deepest level. To love requires that our heart be purified, to truly love.

To have faith in yourself and in one another requires that you purify your heart. So that’s a prerequisite, that’s what I’m saying, to truly feeling, knowing, understanding, and experiencing love, purifying your heart.
Faith is not something that you can learn from anywhere other than having a pure heart. That requires that we be vulnerable to all aspects of life. That we not only tolerate one another, and each others’ thoughts, and ways of being, but that we Accept it, acceptance of each other. And in reality is that we might see that life itself is absolutely, absolutely beautiful, beyond the illusion that we place life. There are no Incarnations that return to this earth to preach any particular religion, or to teach any religious goal other than the Truth. Always remember that.
If anyone tries to convert you and your soul in any direction and it does not feel right to you, turn away. Spiritual is not a conversional force. Love is not a conversional force. Love is the very essence of life.
Since we have been chanting for sometime, I was hoping perhaps we could possibly share in a song together. And I happen to know that there is one there, oh I believe his name is Nirodha, and he knows this one very well. And so if you will join in with me, and I will do my best from this far away to share with you, and I want you with all of your whole self, all the light within your heart, to chant with me.

Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now I’m found was blind but now I see. Was grace that taught my heart to fear (ignorance) and grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that grace appear the hour I first believed.(in yourself)
When we’ve been there ten-thousand year bright shining as the sun.
When on this day to sing of praise than when we’ve first begun. (slight word differentiation)

We all struggle with that blindness, some people more than others. Just remember that blind is centered with the earth. Just a veil, maya Herself, at Her best. And we all have the ability to overcome that blindness, all of us. So as you sit there in that asan may you soak in the grace of  birth. May you absorb the blessings of Guru. May we honor together just in this evening the One in which name so many at its lowest point, always sends The Self out in whatever form it is that group gather, honor that Jesus child.
And it happens to be at this point in Kali Yuga that many of us need the Mother, we need Her. We need her love, we need her arms, we need to know that we can give birth to the Goddess\Godlike Self within ourselves. We need to remember that it’s possible and none of us are exempt. There are many things that are said about this time of year, a lot is said about the giving, and receiving materialism, capitalism, and all the things that we hear and see, but I ask you to step away from that with me right now. And I ask you to look within your own self. I ask you to question, what truly is it in my little self, in my tiny universe, that I have to offer to humanity, to life? Well, I as the Mother will ask you, please don’t make it too hard on yourself. Don’t search and don’t think, just pull out the love within yourself. When we have stopped speaking together this evening don’t forget to share the compassion with the person next to you, and behind you, and in front of you, truly share it, mean it.
Well, I always ask you to remember that, you must always think that, “Well tomorrow may never come.” Now, that may sound very disturbing to you. But it always helps us to not take the day for granted, instead to very much regard the preciousness of life right now.
A precious child shared with you Her innermost Self. And you are too a child within yourself. Will you share that with someone else? Don’t buy them something. Write them a poem, draw them a picture, put your arm around them, pinch their cheek. It matters. And as you sit there with your sweet little eyes closed, focusing all your energy on your heart, know from this many miles away I send you my deepest love and blessings. May you not keep it all to yourself, but will you share it with others.
Life isn’t about what we can get, life is about what you can give. Because to tell you the truth child you have every thing you need. And from all that you have, what are you going to give? It’s about karma, you know, it’s about Bhakti. It’s about the highest Bhakti, Prem. Let no person be a stranger, let no person be an enemy. And although not everyone can be our brothers and sisters, we are all, all of us, all of life, is interconnected, at some level. We must all take care of each other.
And so as you sit there again, with your spine straight in your centered self, focusing all that energy in the heart and using the Ajna chakra to visualize your highest ideal, I ask you to allow the prana deeply within all of life to flow through you and out of you, and connect it with the person next to you, across from you, in front of you, outside of the shrine room. And right now I ask you in your own self would you please take the time to connect with a person that you would least expect yourself to, and right now please take the time within your own tiny universe in yourself, to say to them something with meaning. Whether you actually ever see that person or ever have the opportunity to say it, whatever it is. Let it be something with compassion. Be at the level as you would want them to be with you. How would one do that, another person to be with you.
I sat with many people last week here, and we spoke of many deep truths about life. There were many questions, and something very important impressed
upon them is, this is life and it is not a game. But it is a precious moment, a moment in time. And you must not waste one precious ounce of it. Every thought, every breath counts. Not really anything to do with your next life. No we don’t, we don’t want to live the life, “well next time”, because everything we do, and think, and say, and want in this life, right now determines everything about your life a few seconds from now. So whether you are ten years old, or twelve, or fifteen, or twenty-two, or forty-six, or fifty-five, or sixty-nine, it doesn’t matter, what matters is right now.

There are those of us who are very familiar with the many times that we have come and gone. That doesn’t make us anything special let me tell you. But what it does, it allows us to have that great compassion for the causes of suffering. And it allows us to have that great compassion for the suffering itself. It allows us to be the example of how we can remove ourselves, not only from the suffering, but to never take on the cause of another suffering. We have teachers in life that are willing to take us through that path. And if we should ever come across That person, That being, That lite of Truth could tell them how to go about themselves, show them the ways, but not everyone is willing to know the true causes of suffering. Not everyone is willing to go through the suffering to teach others, not everyone is willing. And so he took that few chosen ones and he taught them on the Sermon on the Mount. There were a great deal of people who were given many truths, just as we are this day right now on December 24, 2000. Many of us are shown and told many truths, may we take in such truths. May we love the vessel that houses wherever it comes from. But most importantly, may we love the teaching itself. Right now as this Guru loves you, I feel the softness in your heart, I feel the softness in your heart. I feel that you have truly let go right now, just for now, anything and everything that bothers you outside of those temple doors. And as I sit with you there on that chair that was so lovingly, and painstakingly made for this little body to sit on, I’m sitting there with you, and I look, and I see the desire is in each one of you to know the Truth, no matter how far away we seem. To experience love, even if it’s hard to accept and to give. So I ask you, please live your life as though tomorrow may never come. And I don’t say it with a dooming, I say it with sincere desire that you should want to live life fully, be careful with that, right now fully. Understand each moment, look into the eyes of the person whom you are sitting near, whom you are close to, or someone you don’t even know, and just desire to love them. Simply because you are you connect with them at some level. As we all are. We all have our faults, we all have our goodness, but more importantly, we are all made in the image of The One and that’s the truth. And we are all a precious being of joy in the ocean, in the vastness, and each and every drop matters, especially now.
Chant with me one round of the japa of Sah Ham. Three times. So make sure the body is straight, and the body is comfortable.

Sah Ham
Sah Ham
Sah Ham

The sun and planetary forces are very strong right now which means that the Guru Chakra, Jupiter, which aides you to the deepest meanings of life. This is in each of us, in each and every person, to feel and experience at many deep levels the understanding of the purpose of life, which is to know The Self. There are many beings that are not as fortunate as we are right now. May your prayers and your thoughts go to them. May you have at least thirty seconds in your day to send them, and to place all your energies into Spirit, and all the energies from our time right now. Now chant with me:

Om Mani Padma Hum

There isn’t any Guru that resides alone, none of you are capable of finding your way home alone. But, we are all capable of accepting. We need help remembering our True nature. So we must help each other, but first we must help ourselves. Acceptance of our own Guru gives us the ability to accept all of life as it is, exactly as it is with no expectations. At night when you’ve gone home and you lie asleep in your dreams, dreaming of sugar plums waiting for Santa to come visit you, remember , remember the magic in life, remember that spark. Remember that you are the wick and you were wise enough to search for Guru, to ignite the memory, the wisdom, the flame of truth within yourself, therefore you are wise enough to reach enlightenment, if we just remember to follow the path. Being a Bhakta isn’t always easy, but once you have faith in yourself securely, no one can change your heart in any direction other than that one purpose of The Absolute Truth. My blessings are with you and that blessing of all the ancestors through all of space and time immemorial are with you. Om shanti shanti shanti. Peace be with you in your hearts and souls. Namaste’

Swami Shubhrananda Psy.D.
December 2000

In reverance of The Mothers’ son Jesus

What a great day this is, that we have the ability to gather here together right now in our love for Creator and in the name of Jesus  whom we are celebrating together this very evening, his birth, his presence here on earth, his willingness to be the beacon of light, and his knowledge that he was but an instrument in the hands of The Creator, a mouth piece for the Word.

I ask you precious ones in reverence for ALL illumined Souls, ALL Spiritual teachers who have come in the name of Creator to teach the Word, would you please sit with the spine straight, sit comfortably, bringing all the energies within yourself to the center of your being, gathering it in your heart and your mind, lift that energy to the Ajna chakra, the sun center, the place there between the brow. As we sit here together in this beautiful shrine room know that it is lit with the energies and the light of all The Holy Ones, residing in the The Cosmos. The Cosmos resides within you. Humbly I offer this song at the blessed feet of Divinity. Please join me if you like:

Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now I’m found was blind but now I see. Was grace that taught my heart to fear and grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that grace appear the hour I first believed.
When we’ve been there ten-thousand years bright shining as the sun,
when on this day to sing The Mothers’ praise than when we’ve first begun.

Each human being is a vessel a body temple. Each individual being houses a Universal drop of Soul. Spirit is flowing throughout all of life. Yet, it is said that we human beings are the only conscious entity, meaning that we have the ability to assimilate and utilize our intelligence, and we even have the ability to decide how to use that intelligence.

Let me tell you a little secret. All of life is spiritual. The only problem is, is that many people choose not to accept this, and that is simply because they cannot see the true beauty in life, the true beauty in living the human existence. The very essence of life is the presence of Spirit. Because we live in the realm of time and space and causation it is very difficult for us to understand Spirit. You see there is only One Truth and that Truth is genderless.  And all religions are born under that One Truth, thus causing relevant truth or the many paths of religion. Spirit flowing through all of life makes it very simple for us to understand then that we are all interconnected. No matter what our relevant truths may be we are all interconnected. We are all, if you will, a part of The One Truth.

All True Preceptors come to the earth to speak, to teach the One Truth. Since time immemorial, Incarnations have returned to the earth speaking just that One Truth. And for aeons the human beings have taken that One Truth and segregated it into their own relevance to suit their needs in time and in space.

I remind you again that we are all but one individual drop of the ocean of eternity, yet reminding you that we are all interrelated even in our divisions of relevant truth.

When Jesus was young he was not yet aware of what he had returned to this earth to do, yet when he was initiated by his Guru John the Baptist, he became illumined. He realized his purpose, and he knew he needed to teach The Truth. Now, he also knew that there were only a few that he would be able to impart The Truth to, yet there were many thousands of human beings who needed to hear The Truth. He knew that they could only take in The Truth at their own level of understanding, and therefore, he taught it at their level of understanding. All True Spiritual Preceptors know that not every human being can take the Truth exactly as it is, because of karma, because of cause and effect. We all have a particular level of mind and understanding. Therefore, we have once again, the many religions or the many Spiritual paths, we say will eventually lead to The One Truth. However, the further we as a people go from The Truth the more difficult it is to know what The Truth really is. We, who see, call it The Dharma, The Law, THE way to live the human existence. It is actually quite simple, but we as human beings complicate it, because again of our relevance, our desire to live life the way we want to, the way we choose to see it.

I’m going to tell you that we are all daughters and sons of Mother. There is no such  thing as just one son of god. You see, the seed of perfection lies within all of us, deeply within the center of our heart. We have simply forgotten that seed of perfection exists, therefore, it is difficult for us to nourish it. We live more in the ignorance of this physical world and believing that this is all there is, yet there is always that nagging hunger. Sometimes, occurring more prevalent than at other times, that there is something more, something beyond what we perceive to be the totality of our human existence, and for those of us who are tired of dredging through the mere MUNDANE existence and truly desire to nourish the seed of perfection within, The Incarnations return again and again, such as Jesus. And they teach us how to shed the veils of ignorance, the clouds of darkness that shroud the seed of perfection. You see darkness cannot survive where there is light. And so if we choose to stand in the illuminated light of a perfect teacher then we too will come to see the Perfect Truth that is always there within us.

In the ancient teachings of Upanishads we are told that humanity lives within three states of consciousness. The waking, the dreaming and the dreamless sleep. Now, there is a fourth state, which is beyond those three states. And it is in the fourth state that one wakes up. One goes beyond ordinary mind. And the heart is filled with light and the mind is still and can see the perfection of the True Self. In this transcended state one is changed forever. The beauty of what I’m telling you is that all human beings are capable of such transcendence. And there are True Spiritual Teachers who can teach you how to go beyond ordinary mind. Popular belief, I believe, says there are only a few people who are this way or who can be this way because they are chosen ones. There is no truth to this.

What is required to be guided on the path to self realization? A burning desire, a settling for nothing else, nothing less, but to know the True Self. The only thing that stands in the way of knowing the True Self is our ignorance and that ignorance can be removed, but we must be willing. We must be relentless in our efforts and our desires to do so. We must be willing to abolish the demands of our own ego in order to accept direction from One who has transcended the three lower states of consciousness.

No religion holds the key to Truth. There is not just one person, We are a collective who can lead you on the path to enlightenment. We as individuals and collectively have many obstacles to overcome, these obstacles being the demons within our own minds. Some of the biggest ones we face are hatred and greed, yet it is not impossible. But, I will tell you it is difficult. Difficult because everyone wants to be right, which means someone must be wrong. Our best weapons to fight the battle of our own ignorance are Love, Compassion and Acceptance. You see, tolerance will not do. Tolerance still leaves the festering of hatred. Love can only be understood by one of pure heart; otherwise they are degrees of love and these degrees of love, of course, are conditional. There are no conditions or stipulations in Love, and therefore, there should not be any in ours. No condition, no stipulations, this would mean that we have trust, trust in the fact that we are a child of The One.

Religions have come to be organized conversional forces. And they state that their way is the only way. Which is back again to what I said to you earlier, I’m
right and you’re wrong. A religion of a man made god is a conversional force. It requires right or wrong. It requires war on each other in man gods name. It does not however, require that one have the burning desire to remember ones original True nature.  To do so one must be willing to renounce all man made concepts of mans’ god, and be willing to seek the Truth by inward turning.

Releasing one’s self from the bondage’s of fear, fear of standing alone – we are never alone – fear of not being a part of a mass consciousness belief system. Just because there are the many standing in one belief system does not make them right. As human beings we often stand in the masses out of fear, fear of being questioned, fear that our preconceived notions will be challenged and we won’t have the answers and that this will make us wrong.

Jesus was a Bhakta, he was beyond faith. He had the Supreme Knowledge. If one cannot perceive one’s self to be a daughter or son of The Cosmos then one will not be able to grasp the concept of – we are never alone.

Swami Shubhrananda Psy.D.
December 2000


Impermanence comes to mind immediately with the start of this new year. Change may seem faster and more furious than ever in the lives of many on many levels, world, countries, governments, societies and in our personal lives.

In the United States we start this new year with a new president and new decision makers for our country as a whole. In latter part of 2000, when elections were taking place, there were many clues as to the path of changes set in motion and how they would be played out: with a great amount of turmoil and resistance; thus pointing out to a great degree the battles deep within the collective consciousness, not only in this country, but world leadership, and those who follow those leaders into the battles of “willfully imposing their rightness” on those who strive to live a life of balance and acceptance, and strive to teach their children the same. Oppression and dictatorship flowing through the collective mind unleashed because of fear and apathy WILL NOT DO! All beings together returning to the natural state, which is Wisdom—Wisdom is Love +Truth can make change in this flow of consciousness through “Action in Non-action”, thus creating impermanence in the present flow of collective mind. Change is inevitable – apathy is a disease. No one person or group of people has the right to rule over another—true leaders do not use force to lead.

The direction of leadership has changed. We must not collaborate with the enemies of hatred whose brothers are deceit, anger, greed and conversional forces such as oppression and violence. Throughout this year we will see the collective collusional forces of “dictatorship mindedness” fast and furiously at work. It will appear to be in the direction of a Oneness, not necessarily in the direction of One Love, One Truth, One Spirit and all acceptance of each other and the differences of human nature, but a forced oneness supposedly for the good of all.
Creating an impermanence in the stream of collective mind that gently wherever possible continues to allow for change in what threatens to be a limitation of the individual nature, worldly and personally, is what is needed. No need for violence, just steadfast determination with a meditative mind rooted in awareness that we are all born to the natural right to live happily, free within our own thoughts, and to express our individual nature without fear of oppression—as long as it is not in any way causing harm to another.

Swami Shubhrananda Psy.D.
New Years Day 2001

A teaching given twelve years ago to the disciples warning with visionary accuracy the axis of EVIL is HERE in OUR OWN House white as it may be, yet filled with darkness that the collective consciousness so blindly followed into the gallows. Cynical is the mind of many regarding prophecy, yet your self-righteous egos refuse the light of TRUTH…Soooo here we be still wallowing in the self imposed ignorance; still nose to a** like cows in the pen with the gun to the head!  FIGHT YOUR APATHY ! Only a coward blames the messenger, This One knows all too well, but it does not change the message. WHY will you not listen oh ye’ ignorant ones!??!!!? This One speaks to you in LOVE shining the light if truth for your favor…



MARCH=WOMANS’ MONTH so VOW to REVEAL the ideology of contempt and hatred for Womankind

Why is it that women continue to live in secret contempt, anger and fear? Why do women continue to suppress and give away their energy of sensual, sexual and spiritual power? Why do women continue to pretend to be weak and stupid and in need of a man to tell them when to even take a shit? Why do women continue to live in male defined and dominated religious structure, based solely by the way, on the ideology of contempt and hatred for womankind, and further, the structure of the christian church institution? Why do women allow themselves to be continually controlled by their biological functions, their physical appearances and the way they act and think, and why do they allow themselves to be controlled and dominated with regards to a once natural fertility and reproductive cycle?

Now it is a choice of a patriarchal reign when a women conceives and even if she can let go of a fetus that she knows deep intuitively within herself is not supposed to be for her, it’s her choice. I mean think about it: incest, rape, and a woman is told that she has no right to make a decision regarding a life that was not her choice to bring into the world.

Can you imagine what would happen if all the women, and there are millions and millions of women, in the patriarchal churches removed themselves in spirit, mind and body from male dominance and collectively unified in the sacred beauty of oneness with The Divine Mother. Individually and collectively, can you imagine overcoming the fear of The Mother,  and seriously rejoicing in womankind, nurturing, loving and protecting what every woman knows deep within herself to be the truth beyond patriarchal rule?

Truly, there is little said or written on the very truths of the effects of god the father on the ideas, the intimate thoughts, knowledge and actual experiences of womankind herself. Maybe, women are simply afraid of patriarchal repercussions? But what is worse than chronic torture pschoneuroimmunologically and or physically, DEATH? Once a male student brought a knife to session and admitted, “I want to kill The Mother in YOU” and took the knife out…  Understandable not Acceptable, WHY? You can exist oppressed, suppressing your pain= breathing dead woman OR KNOWING THE PREDATOR may come to silence you @ some point however, not even statute of limitations should not stop truth of abuse coming forward.

Last May eclipse This One took a trip to Jacksonville Fla., Gulfport Ms. and Tucson Az. after a sister having sought This One out, first back in the late 90’s claiming to have experienced the EXACT same abuses as This One from same INCESTUOUS PREDATOR. Second contact, on this box. After much confiding on both parts woman to woman, sister to sister she claimed based on the PREDATOR having alcohol dementia and having been sexually inappropriate with our youngest sisters friends,( no reports made by those parents either) nothing mattered anymore. Knowing HE and the Other ABUSERS(PARENT TYPES ALSO)+ the list of others the parents did nothing about must be revealed. This sister was told by This One “HE” has ALL of his faculties w\o doubt. This One told her The TRUTH must come forward before they die or memory loss occurs, hence,book\doc spoken of, no names spared. The purpose for this little segue- hearing a MAN, Geoffrey Robertson, human rights lawyer re enforce the KNOWN. Mr. Robertson said,”Before one goes senile they should be tried.”

Aware that the SYSTEM is a joke from personal experience with it for years and thousands of children\women facing EVERY conceivable abuse, skipping the middle MAN and their unearned monetary gain straight to the pictures & point is most empowering to the Spirit. March is WOMANS’ MONTH…??? so a small sharing w\u. 99.9% of those seeking inner freedom and annihilating fear that come to me are abused. The effects are generational. ALL were told they would never be asked to do what This One would not do Herself. Sister, BKMAR which ever you go by name wize no matter Betrayal is unacceptable there’s no caring who your mother This Ones’ step-mother worked for in the SYSTEM. YOU opened the book “HE” abused our dead brother too! Why bother with all the unshown\told TRUTHS; SO THAT EVEN ONE MAY USURP THE STRENGTH THRU KNOWING they are not alone, not crazy and BE FREED. Karma brings us together as many times as it takes thru the sins of the father(BLOODLINE CONSCIOUSNESS) until balance is attained.

Will womankind ever recognize the freedom within Herself and stop forsaking its presence? Will womankind ever choose to completely step away from male dominance and into the sacredness of Herself? The only thing that ever comes between two women is a male energy! Think about it!

May the circle be open but not unbroken. May the peace of the Goddess be ever in your heart. Merry meet and merry part and merry meet again.


People who fear homosexuality are ignorant U need to fear the self rightious betraying ones but, U are blind, eh!?

Just as people fear color rubbing off, people fear homosexuality as though it is a disease that can overtake the heterosexual person. The only disease to fear in this case is that of the ignorant mind, the mind filled with wrong thought that gives rise to wrong action. This is due to wrong understanding, narrow concepts, and the distortion of truth, leaving a society that prides itself in tolerance at best, and only if homosexuality doesn’t enter their realm of existence, their family, their neighborhoods, their work place, their church. Should we not awaken to the reality of the impossibility of such a fantasy? Or will we continue our violent means of BULLYING, genocide, ignoring, shaming, hating, ridiculing, abusing, persecuting, and yes, killing of ones Spirit and potential to destroy quality of life for generations to come!

Homosexuality, remember, has been since time immemorial, and will continue to be forever more. In the name of religion and so-called moral righteousness, we can remove basic human rights but, never can the nature of a person be destroyed, only distorted. Herein lies the cause of sexual deviance in the homosexual relationship. Rejection, BULLYING, tolerance not acceptance, abuse, incest, rape, the catholic\christian right church hierarchy on down to lay preachers can\does change the victimized @ the depth of Being.

Parents deny their homosexual children and attempt by force to make them be like everyone else. Thus, we see the psychological harm created by fear. These psychological ramifications lead a child into shame and self punishment. Love is no longer the basis of relationships but, the need to be loved and accepted becomes even more paramount and the means to attain it can and does become a dark vicious cycle often leading to self-destructive patterns in desperation.

Do any of YOU know what it FEELS like to know you are\were UNLOVED as a child? To FEEL that is what gives birth to the predator, the enabler, or The awake LOVER of Life born of compassionate understanding. Knowing Truth, Intelligence, never accepting the LIES we are fed as the foundation for surviving the human condition. The young ones will rise up and fight the establishment AGAIN and will succeed beckoning the lite of The Mother having enough BETRAYAL of entrusting in THE UNTRUSTABLE.

Everyone wants to be loved.


Mother the Creator, Her children, living beings, procreate, mankind, IS the WOMD

If one had the notion then, one could trace back the foundation of the perverse, corrupt enthronement of man god the father. Many have done it. The corruption of the oldest religion, that of The Mother. Roman Christianity, having taken all of its so-called sacred analogies, law, beliefs, rituals, and symbology, yes even their prayers and reinvented them to be the creation of the father god. A way of life, created by man to successfully reinvent the whole matricentered way. This required the complete destruction of the very core of their existing way of life.

Kill The Mother and all evidence of Her as the matrix, conform( recruit by conversional force) innocent girls and boys. This of course included the destruction of all temples of worship to The Goddess; all means of sustenance, as the people of The Mother God religion were largely agriculturists, vegetarian, mainly a peaceful, non-aggressive, non-hierarchal, non-exploitive life. People of the world, I tell you it is the true nature of the people we have forgotten. It’s time to remember. True nature= Compassion, Love, Trust, Intelligence(not intellect), Cosmic and communal connection.

Kill The Priestess, kill the girl children who were being taught the ancient secrets to the mystery of life. Kill the feminine completely, except for those enslaved, keep them alive physically so not all men had to resort to necrophilia, just pedophilia, sodomy and every other pheel- ya, the man invented by “perversizing” natural spiritual sensual sexual expression of ourselves. And, sodomize, torture then kill the men who refuse to collaborate. Usually, this was a Shaman and this allowed some men to” see the error of their ways” and have the opportunity to join the Christian coalitional forces. Destroy all ideals, these were images of The Mother God, carved of wood, and clay, and painted on walls, and stones. All rituals and ritual objects, however they appear to be of their Christian faith, have their foundation in the religion of The Mother. All rituals and ritual objects, including the robes are just bastardized to suit the relevance of a father god and his hierarchy. Beginning with the cosmic egg and the snake, to the world tree, the svastika, right down to the cross itself, are all sacred symbology stolen and “pervisized” to suit the patriarchal power of dominance over life. Instead of viewing life in all of Her spiral or circular movement, our conformed view of life is linear, all cycles separated or annihilated. All in order to separate man from The Mother. Separate, devastate, alienate, annihilate, reform/conform then pro-create.  Worship of the moon and the water changed to worship of the sun and the invention of some sacrifice called, “the lambs of God”. The building of churches became square, completely sparse, surrounding grounds had no trees or flowers, the reinforcement of the new linear existence. The dancing circles of The Mother religion were again mentioned by Jesus. He said, “event the passion I reveal to thee and the others in the round dance, I would have to call it a mystery.” Now this he was supposed to have said in leading the twelve apostles in a hymn to the father god.  I think we could look closely and see clearly the alteration of truth.

In this time of killing, more a” mass genocide”, the ancient women actually chose very hideous torture and even death, instead of speaking of the ancient ways. I expounded on this subject in my teachings regarding past lives, for many of these beings are here in this time to facilitate the necessary changes in human consciousness.

Remember, the only thing that comes between two women is man.  Man does not accept a powerful feminine, however we have never gone away.  Unfortunately, many gave up becuz man will still attack, torture, rape and KILL first the Spirit of girls, warning them of “their place”. A woman with Power has suffered the path; a true warrior for all feminine kind.

Women lite up your psyche see documentary, “Miss Representation”. May it wake you up!

The bromance (PDMF’s) of the catholic church is not serving Humanity nor any christian off shoots that pridefully have to be separate. I know an orthodox catholic man who since my birth is a perpetrator\ with a skilled team of wife and sisters who enable and a woman\husband enabler team who live in fear of hell for they are reborn hypocrites. Like their leader they RUN from the truth, but cannot hide.

The pope left and the fall of male dominance continues, just as it should be.  Another perp will be chosen and the people have no say!?

The wisest choice would of course be a woman who has experienced the sexual prowess and\or sexual abuse of a child and is able to FEEL the pulse of life.

Jai MA

Full Moon symbolizes The Mothers’ Left Eye

Symbols were used by the ancients. They are powerful images succored with the human hearts and mind. In the Mother religion, the interconnected-ness of all of Mother’s creation was expressed through plants, animals, all of life.

Klan’s as well as individuals had totems. Totem means related through The Mother, the knowledge that we are not separate from The Mother or any other form of Her creation. The Great Spirit is alive in and through all of life. The Great Mother Herself continuously/simultaneously assuming all shapes and forms. All of life is the rhythmic dance in Her breath.

Did you know that Jesus said, “the whole on high hath part in our dancing. Who danceth not, knoweth not what cometh to pass.” This truth has its origin of words in the ancient pagan sacred cave dances. Did you know that his-story about evolution is not inclusive of evolving spiritually, understanding the true meaning of human existence and an interconnectedness of all cultures, because that is her-story oppressed and requires understanding the nature of humankind. Instead the western Christian patriarchy insists on evolving through technology, through what is called analysis based on man, indoctrined logic, reason, and deduction based on inserted ego and some undeniable facts; or just mere human intellect, repudiation of spiritual truths and let us not forget the process of his conventional mind, called reason/logic for each and every man becoming one now for this moment. Here is the insertion of relevant truth and as a result wala!, we have alienated ourselves from The One, disconnected from the very Source of life. Yet, the rhythmic dance continues, even in our lonely fragmented existence; love, interconnectedness, peace, memory, and vision have all atrophied in the projected confirming vibration of patriarchal religion, especially Roman Christianity, a manmade road of rules.

As long as you continue to follow nose to ass like cattle the linear LIE line of what you are told and you do not question you will remain ignorant by choice. See the documentary EARTHLINGS with your children so they too are educated. These truths were given to the children The Great Spirit intrusted this One with @ every young years. When we crossed the street I held out my finger, impressing in their consciousness hold to The Mother, no one in those cars is watching out 4 U! It only took a moment in time for TRUST is our bond. Teaching them the truth of the human condition, what appears to be authoritative is fear mongers here to oppress your vulnerable view of life yet U must learn to live in this world strengthen the pineal gland be fearless. Know that what U hear in school is NOT the truth, most important NEVER allow anyone to speak to or do to U anything Your Mother has not. Symbolism,nonverbal communication encouraged telapathic  attunement. Experience with severe abuse @ the start of this life by a predator pedophiliac who fathered me and EVIL enabling womb bearing mother symbolizes why I did not allow them to experience the fragile little flowers I was cultivating in this beautiful garden of life. NO contact! This is inclusive of now deceased mother of the predator of a sister and deceased abused brother and husband of the bio-mother. The present wife and sister of the predator, included.

Born fully enlightened, old,tiny, overflowing with Love, unloved, a mother to siblings(they agree.) Caucasians can be slaves too!

This Ones life work has been undoing the fear,confusion and affects of abuse esp. SEXUAL ABUSE of thousands of children,serving to reshape the character of victimized survivors.

An ashram is the place for the feminine reemergence of your true Self, lifting your consciousness, grow\develope study, be safe and abundantly LOVED !


To hope, to dream, to love, to experience life without regrets is freedom.

There is freedom in the one who feels free to hope, to dream, to love, to experience life without regrets; but knows remorse for the wrong doing that one has done, and continues to search for balance within ones own heart and mind. Be free from fear.

Remember that you are always free to make choices in your life. Release your mind from its negative memories of the past, and open yourself to the presence of the flowering beginnings of your new perceptions, new ideas, and your chosen unfolding happiness. You have always been free, just simply not aware of it.

We all have many barriers. It is not the freedom which is hard to obtain, it’s the resistance to freedom that we all struggle with. We need not wait for the death of the physical body to experience freedom. This is only freedom from the physical sheath itself, anamaya kosha.

Remember, it is never others who enslave us, but we are enslaved in this body by our own thoughts, our own desires, and previous actions. We have no one to blame for the way that we are, no one. AhamBrahmasmi- I am the creative principle, I think therefore, I create. Take heed to this, and use caution in your thoughts. Dowse the fires of passion that fuel the enslaving negative thoughts and beliefs. With a changed attitude, one can begin to experience the freedom to make positive choices for a healthier, peaceful existence, and actually share in the beauty of life.


Happy New Year 2013

I hope in some way that this vessel has been an instrument for the presence of Her Love, and the spreading of Her compassion like a blanket across the Souls of all of you, that you may be warmed in Her Love, and in Her Truth, as best spoken in the words that I have given you in this past year. Gayatri a song I chant this for the Spiritual Abundance of All Beings.

Divine Mother Bless All Beings

Om Shanti Shanti Shanti